Hi friends,
Sunshine to you.
I'm sitting in a corner table in an empty Monday morning coffee shop (it's a de-facto holiday today), under the glow of yellowish fluorescent light, serenaded by maddenning loop of recycled songs, writing to you.
The memory of yesterday's day long celebration of Uncle Sam's is still fresh in my mind, ready to be replayed with my inner remote control, a series of vivid scenes, occasionally interrupted with blurry static silence sequences.
Here's the bad news. I can't deliver to you my cool distanced obvservation of moments one day old because I'm still in the midst of patching some freshly torn fabrics within me. It's a task I grossly underestimated in its difficulty for I am in a new teritory this time. I'm now on the last step of "339 ways to walk away". Step 338 "drink alone in a desolate park under the umbrella of fireworks" didn't work; at least that police lady didn't fine me;and she listened for a while. Maybe next year's edition will be better; reminder to self, get a refund.
I should've known J.Lo's gonna get married again.
But let's move on.
4th of July was a big party for Chicago (just like the rest of America) and it arrived with whatever you expect from such event. Unlimited drinking, countless food and loose women. That if you a college frat boy. For the rest of us, it's a time to hang out with good friends, for families to tighten the knots of their blood lines and for lovers to warm their flames.
The city is doing its best to cater for all of these type of people by throwing all sort of festive activities; fireworks, free concerts, parades, and countless other fun and exciting things to do.
I chose the free concert, one in a lush green summer park next located next to the lake and main artery of Chicago. Three bands were going to play, in sequence with short interludes, Old 97's, They Might Be Giants, and Counting Crows. I strolled through one mile shopping corridor (Michigan Avenue) to get to the park, in the company of others fellow consumer of happiness and jolly of the day, reaching my destination 10 minutes shy of 2 o'clock. All I brought was a yellow fleece for me to sit on and a sense of anticipation.
A friend (single, good looking and own his own place in the city;girls, start your line) had been expecting me, sitting in a spot near a yellow smiley flag;between two Rainbow umbrella, in a semi circles of his good friends and a birthday girl; two Lizs, a Mike and other with anonymous names. Happy Birthday. Food: An intoxicatingly sweet chocolate brownies, brown and green grapes, a limited amount but highly in demand Margaritas, water, wheat cookies (just in case you are allergic to chocolate), and some other consumable pleasures hidden in ice-cooled picnic bags, inviting the same curiousity that begat Pandora's tragic downfall. Beach chairs, blankets, and barely-dry grass form our inner sanctum amidst this vast open space, amongst thousand if not tens of thousands concert goers. A flock of grey clouds menacingly circling on a sky keeping us on our toes. Rain or no rain, that was the question.
I sat down, absorbing the atmosphere blanketed with the warmth of summer, ready to weave another vignette of my life; sharing my stories with people around me;and listening to their own tales. Hmm, the sweet smell of summer entered my lung as I greedily inhales them;I need more moments like this.
People, people everywhere, in every shapes and sizes, happy being outside, in the sun, chatting excitedly, generating spark of electricity in the air.
And we waited, as more people coming to join our semi circles (gradually transforming to a full circle now), some new faces and some souls I know well. In the meantime, a fascinating common ritual is being performed all around me, bottles of sun screen being passed around and white substances smeared to the skins to protect them from the angry sun. I politely refused. Indulge me this vice of getting Skin Cancer.
And here we come, the first order of the event, people standing up with hands on their chest, singing and listening to two angelic voices (mixed with other off key voices from good samaritans who joins the chorus) signing "star spangled banner", the national
anthem of the United States of America. A Slow methodical song, thousands of bodies, with a green grass carpeted ground and (now) blue sky made quite an experience, taking your breath away. As the singer climb the octaves in the musical notes, I noticed a single engine airplane slowly crawling the sky, dragging a banner, easily read from 1000 feet, "Baked with Harold and Kumar, July 30th", promoting a new Hollywood comedy, hearing myself thinking "this national anthem is brought to you by this stupid movie".
Welcome to America.
And the songs from Old 97s reveberated through the air, broadcasting lyrics and melodies to air. Sorry buddy, wrong frequency. I don't know the band and I could barely care about their song right now and I'm not alone in this as pretty much people around me chatting their time away, as if the band playing on stage right now was mute and invisible, not heard, unseen.
We couldn't see the stage from where we were.
...
A beautiful woman in green jacket is sitting across my coffee table right now, shuffling her reading. She has a wedding ring on her right hand.
Now back to our regular programming...
I nodded and smiled thorought their song list although I pretty spent much of the time staring at the foot traffic in front of us, people watching. Our place is a jump away from the main foot path that snaked through the park, with pieces of conversations piqueing my attention from now and then. I stared straight, forming my own invisible stage, having people coming in and out of my vision;left to right;right to left; parading their selves.
Welcome to American People Show.
Overheard: "I'm going golfing tomorrow"
Two blonde girls, in hot pinks top and short pants and tanning-machine tan; guy with exposed 6 months pregnant beer belly; A long haired Jesus guy bearing a short plastic like cross in a white;a bearded guy holding a sign "Message from the ExtraTerrestial"; awkward girl with dark trim glasses and pimples; sun charred beef cake guy carrying a blonde kid on his shoulder, a father; And a pair of gargantuan boobbies moved from left to right, swimming in between an old grandpa on a walking stick and a teenager chatting on her cell phone. A brunette in a white skirt with pretty flower print; a granolla girl in a sun dress; a fat girl helping a wheel chaired child. Baloons;
American girls, they make you glad that you are alive.
Colors;color;colors; Mosaic of colors, shaming the rainbow.
I'm being complained for playing slow, depressed songs on my guitar.
"I'm returning a bag of groceries.
Accidently taken of the shelf.
Before the expiration date".
This is "dead", a song not played, by They Might Be Giants. They are on now.
"An image of angel burned into my conciousnes and I am desperately trying to extract her out from my mind, but the root is too deep and not even Venus knew how to help me."
I don't know why I wrote those jumbled sentences but I found them scrawlled on my flaming red notebook.
I'm going nuts.
"Blue canary in the outlet by the light switch
Who watches over you
Make a little birdhouse in your soul
Not to put too fine a point on it
Say I'm the only bee in your bonnet
Make a little birdhouse in your soul"
Aww, they played my most favourite song in the whole wide world.
Sweet sound of flamenco strokes and familiar words woke everybody from their summer lull, They Might Be Giants wondered why
"
Every gal in Constantinople
Lives in Istanbul, not Constantinople
So if you've a date in Constantinople
She'll be waiting in Istanbul
Even old New York was once New Amsterdam
Why they changed it I can't say
People just liked it better that way
"
A girl with a bandage on her right hand. What did she do?
It's getting better.
Interlude. They played again. One song.
"It's from Apollo 18".
Another interlude. This must be the Encore.
Nope. 5 Minutes passed by. End yet?
One more. One sweet song.
It ends.
Radio Free Europe played in the background. More foot traffic.
"Do you have a headache? You look quiet.
Just a bit;I'm just thinking"
Rain King.
"
If there's anyone at home at your place, darling
Why don't you invite me in?
Don't try to bleed me
I've been there before
And I deserve a little more
"
Finally Counting Crows played. 6.30 am, the sun prepared to go to bed.
"They can play the whole show just from their hits".
""I was down at the New Amsterdam staring at this
yellow-haired girl" (Mr. Jones)
Hand up in the air, bodies move, la..la..la..la..la..la..yeah, oh..oh..Mr Jones and Me....
I stood up and start dancing, soaking the beat and rhythm and the weird joy brought by the song.
"This is a brand new song; so let's sing to it"
"
So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it
How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love
"
Jotted down on my notebook "learn to play this".
Ah, the jolly and catchy tunes from Shrek 2. Some of us started dancing again, freeing outselves from the inhibition of
public show of happiness, singing loudly.
"I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally (X 2)
"
Speaking from recent new experience, if you happen to be accidently in love, you will badly want it not unrequited. It's a sweet sensation like no other, exhilirating and scary at the same time due to its out of the blue nature, knocking you out of your balance, with every breath you take smells like roses in full bloom. It's a beautiful curse, punishes you anyway it can.
If your plan A went astray, hopefully it happens with a stranger, so you can walk away, picking up broken pieces of yourself on the way out. If that doesn't happen, follow these steps to recover;.....;err, 'll get back to you on those.
Accidental love sticks my friend, and it doesn't let go.
And they kept playing.
"I may take a holiday in Spain
Leave my wings behind me
Drink my worries down the drain
And fly away to somewhere new
"(Holiday in Spain)
Two new lovers making paper airplane out of one dollar bills.
"Well I am an idiot walking a tightrope of fortune and fame
I am an acrobat swinging trapezes through circles of flame
If you've never stared off into the distance then your life is a shame
And though I'll never forget your face sometimes I can't remember my name
"(Mrs Potter's lullaby)
I cleaned out the picnic bag and started passing around barely cold sodas around. For myself, a mini bottle of red wine, California,
Cabernet Sauvignon, drunk straight out of the bottle.
"And it's just the same hard candy
You're remembering again
Go ask her to come around
And see me late after dark
Don't ask me to come around
Then wait to if there's a spark
"(Hard Candy)
Slow, melanconic song, stirring your soul. Lovers in the corner of my eyes hugged and slow danced to the rhythm of the night.
Found out that I won my bet with Bea.
"I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
Makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her
And it's been a long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember all the times I tried to tell my myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass
And it's one more day up in the canyon
And it's one more night in Hollywood
It's been so long since I've seen the ocean...I guess I should
" (Long December)
Same sex love, hand on hand, obvilious to their surroundings, strolled pass as in their own little perfect world.
"
It seems like I should say "as long as this is love..."
But it's not all that easy so maybe I should just
snap her up in a butterfly net-
Pin her down on a photograph album
I am not worried
I've done this sort of thing before
But then I start to think about the consequences
Because I don't get no sleep in a quiet room and...
"(Anna Begins)
And it ends. Just like that, leaving me wanting for more, but hey you get what you paid for (free concert).
It was 7.42 am, after sitting almost six hours, letting the sun etched on my skin, I slowly picked up my yellow fleece, and started my lone walk
home, joining the crowds, off course after saying my goodbyes . Show's over but friends are forever.
And my friends, that was the summer concert on 4th of July 2004.
My coffee runs dry now and it's time to pack things up and leave. May you have a wonderful summer. I might see you sooner than later as my tea leaf reads voyage soon.