# Tuesday, October 31, 2006

"In point of fact—and it is a sad fact, but a fact nonetheless—America is not winning in Iraq, which means that it is losing. Iraq has fallen apart both as a nation and as a state. Its capital and lands containing almost 50 percent of

the population remain deeply insecure and plagued by rising internal divisions. Much of the south, which is somewhat stable, is subject to gangsterish, theocratic and thoroughly corrupt local governments. To recognize this reality does not mean that there is no hope for the years to come. There is—but hope is not a policy." (Newsweek)

 

Newsweek is concluding that the US is losing Iraq.

posted on Tuesday, October 31, 2006 11:59:24 PM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [0]
# Sunday, October 29, 2006
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The last time I saw my parents I was still 23. I am 28 now.

It's funny that saying "I haven't been back for 5 years" is less of a deal than saying "I was 23 the last time I came back home".

I was closer to 20 back then. Now I am closer to 30.

What will I find back home? How would they perceive me?

If my old friends met me, what questions would they ask? How would I feel about them or they about me?



(A view of Tarakan Island - tin roofs !!!!!)


I shall find out soon :)
posted on Sunday, October 29, 2006 8:25:17 PM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [2]
I had a break for two days this weekend off work which I am forever grateful for - days spent just laying around soaking the fall sun.

I hate free time because I start thinking and pondering again; this time about fear.

I am an optimist by nature - I do many things more for the purpose of finding what will happen instead of planning everything meticulously. And so far, it works out ok.

On the other hand, there's always this feeling of fear I carry everyday, of decisions that I have made or will have to make and about uncertainty of the future.

It has always been there. It does not get worse but it doesn't get better either. Day after day. My monkey brain is worrying about survival and I think it's one of factor why I tend to work a bit over.

I have no safety net. I burn the bridge that can take be back to the previous ravine.

I am always running out of time !!!!

The more things I accomplished, the crazier things I attempt. There's always a new venue to play in - unfamiliar territories and unpredicted challenges.

I fear so I do.

Monkey brain, you can take it out of the jungle but you can't take the jungle out of it.

posted on Sunday, October 29, 2006 8:23:29 PM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [0]
# Thursday, October 26, 2006
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posted on Thursday, October 26, 2006 3:32:16 PM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [0]
# Tuesday, October 24, 2006

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Now we can go back to our regular lunch hour :)

The street is still dusty but you'll be missing the people that used to crowd these paved soil during the normal day. The beer shop now opens for business again after a one month sabbatical, the butcher is closed, but surprisingly there are plenty of businesses open today.

I am not the only one working on this Eid.

McDonald is packed by kids. The supermarket is buzzed with swirling busy bodies in and out carrying their precious items.

From today's observation I think Eid in Indonesia is much more visible than the one I observe today in Cairo. In my island, you will see an army of kids wearing their bright and brand new clothings marrauding open doors from neighbours that celebrate Eid. People open their doors and provide cookies, candies, drinks to strangers during Eid. Two days of Eid (and Chinese New York) are essentially kids happiest days in Indonesia. Coke and Candy, what else would a kid need?

Most people I know are out of Cairo, mostly Sinai, frollicking with flirty sun and swaying with gentle breeze of the red sea.

I have been working for 20 days without a single day off; but soon I will get a respite for all of these craziness - my girl is back in town this weekend :) But I love my work and having another person to restraint me from some excess is a good thing.

posted on Tuesday, October 24, 2006 2:52:11 PM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [1]
# Monday, October 23, 2006
"The destruction wreaked in Bali was as much of a surprise to Indonesia as it was to Australia. Bashir had won political patronage among Indonesia's moderate Islamic politicians and there had been a steadfast refusal among the power base to recognise anything like an Islamic insurgency in their midst. Despite this, the Indonesians showed an extraordinary willingness to brush aside their issues of sovereignty and allow the Australians to work side by side with them in every aspect of the investigation, from forensic sampling at the bomb scene to identifying and prosecuting the bombers." (The Australian)

Bali bombing was a closed cased. We nailed everybody involved in it and the quoted article tells the story behind the successful investigation.

posted on Monday, October 23, 2006 2:00:51 PM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [0]
# Saturday, October 21, 2006

"Most of us wish for more time, bigger budgets, and more help in completing projects. Could that be wishing for the very things that push us further away from success? Should we, instead, wish for shorter deadlines, less people to work with, and even for smaller budgets?

Among the most familiar tunes you will hear played over and over on radio stations this holiday season are from Händel's Messiah. While that music is familiar to most ears, a less known fact is that Händel wrote the entire two-and-a-half-hour work in a mere twenty-four days. He had to, mainly to alleviate his pecuniary troubles at the time. Fast-forward about eighty years, and we witness Rossini poring over the score of his new opera, The Barber of Seville—but not for long, for he completed the entire two-act work in just under three weeks. " (Frank Sommers)

posted on Saturday, October 21, 2006 3:38:25 PM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [0]


But it's OK now. Phiew.
posted on Saturday, October 21, 2006 1:53:38 PM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [3]

"So far in this account I don't think Buddhism in practice comes to startlingly different conclusions about sexual conduct from those of balanced versions of other major religions. But the other religions also have lists of no-no's, of forbidden sexual practices. Some object to partial or total nudity, or masturbation, or cross-dressing, or sado-masochism, or homosexuality, or fetishism, or premarital sex, or oral, anal or group sex, or contracepted sex. Buddhism is notorious for its habit of putting points of practice and doctrine into lists. So where is Buddhism's list of naughty sexual practices?

The answer is short and sweet. Buddhism doesn't (for once!) have a list."

(http://www.buddhanet.net/winton_s.htm)


It simply states "don't do sexual misconduct" and leave the details to the practictioner for the details "sexual misconduct" means. And the guidance to determine that is "do no harm" (no deceit, manipulation, etc)

So consensual sex between two adults are in. Things like do harm like adultery in marriage, phedophilia, rape, etc are out.

Sexual orientation is not detailed in Buddhism - gay or straight - no biggie.

Buddhism itself is a very conservative religion and its standard for moral ethics is very high. We don't have a concept for forgiveness for our sin for example. The 'karma system' simply states if you are bad, you will reap the fruit later on. There is no last minute pardon.


posted on Saturday, October 21, 2006 1:17:33 PM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [0]

“When the Muslims used to disagree, they had different schools of thought,” said Sayed el-Qemni, another reform-minded writer who lives in a small city outside of Cairo. “No one would point to the other and say, ‘This is not Islam.’ But when one school of thought says, ‘I am the correct school of thought and everyone else deserves death,’ then you are starting a new religion.”


"MR. BANNA says one of the fundamental problems with religious leaders in Egypt is that they look to the interpretations of their ancestors and not to the Koran itself. To look directly at the book, and not at the words as interpreted by men living in a different time, would have a liberating effect, he says."

(NY Times)


And I think this is an anathema that is quite common in any religion, reading their scripture and relying too much on the elders that lived hundreds of years ago. Read the holy book directly - it is available to be understood.

This is I think because there's an innate assumption that religious people in history is better people and hence more suitable to interpret holy books better. Bleh. If you read the history of the world, past times are actually terrible.

We lived in a better world that they did - as it should be - because we expect progress with time.
posted on Saturday, October 21, 2006 11:36:42 AM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [0]
# Thursday, October 19, 2006
"How many pyramids have gotten built since the Egyptians adopted an Islamic work ethic?

Seriously, can you not see that Islamic values have contributed to the lack of productivity, which in turn contributes so much to the poverty level of the region.

Democracy isn't going to fix that problem."
(RT's comment)

Well first of all, the Romans and the Greeks didn't built any either. And second, I think the Muslim didn't exactly pray inside Pyramids nor temples so they have little use for them.

But they do built pretty majestic and amazing Mosques here. If you come to Cairo, don't forget to  visit those 1000-900 year old Mosques that still pronounce their glorious past.

About the Islamic values contributing to the lack of productivity, I would not count that as much.  Dubai and Qatar are doing really really well - without much dependency of oil. Malaysia is doing good as well.

In the same vein, the heavily Catholic Latin America  and much the rest of Christian Africa are also in the same shit hole in terms of productivity in general.

No, democracy aint' going to fix Egypt. It takes more than that. It needs a few good leaders.

After hearing again on how Muslims describe Islam, I think it's a good bet that Muslim communities would actually progress so much faster if they actually follow the values of Islam.

Take a look at the issue of corruption. Fuckin' a. Stop doing that and you will see a different Middle East.

Take a look at the issue of cleanlines. They have to clean before they pray, which is five times a day. Imagine being reminded to be clean five times a day. And yet a lot of Muslim majority cities are dirty.

What the Egyptian accomplish in Cairo is actually creating a safe large city. Man, this is the safest big city I have been. You can go to poor areas at night and you will feel safe. Try that in South Chicago.

What Egypt needs is not necessarily democracy. It needs less selfishness and more patriots -  people that care for the good of the country, instead of its own limited self interest. More patriots - like wht USA has plenty of.
posted on Thursday, October 19, 2006 2:14:56 AM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [3]
# Wednesday, October 18, 2006
I went home from work early today. Yay !

posted on Wednesday, October 18, 2006 12:25:52 AM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [1]
# Tuesday, October 17, 2006
"

It has been ruled with an increasingly iron fist since 1994 by President Alexander Lukashenko. Opposition figures are subjected to harsh penalties for organising protests.

In early 2005, Belarus was listed by the US as Europe's only remaining outpost of tyranny.

Communist Party supporter with flag, Minsk central square, 2005
Belarus remains defiant in the face of Western pressure

The country became independent in 1991, following the collapse of the Soviet Union.

More than a decade later, the sense of national identity is weak, its international isolation is intensifying and the nature of political links with Russia remains a key issue.

In the Soviet post-war years, Belarus became one of the most prosperous parts of the USSR, but with independence came economic decline. President Lukashenko has steadfastly opposed the privatisation of state enterprises. Private business is virtually non-existent. Foreign investors stay away." (BBC)

posted on Tuesday, October 17, 2006 10:58:46 PM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [1]
Ramadan Work Schedule in Egypt : 9am - 3pm.

My work schedule in Ramadan in Egypt : 9am - 00.30.


posted on Tuesday, October 17, 2006 2:08:23 AM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [3]
# Monday, October 16, 2006
"Today, however, I decided to choose honesty over niceness. Two months earlier, I had been diagnosed with a brain tumor that required intensive surgery and rehabilitation. This was my first meeting with the President and Karl Rove since my return. Something about undergoing brain surgery had made me reflect about whether I had really been doing a public service by pretending that our office had been living up to its commitments.

I glanced over at Karl and turned to look the President in the eye. "Sir, we've given them virtually nothing," I said, "because we have had virtually nothing new to give." The President had been looking down at some papers about the event, but his head jerked up. "Nothing? What do you mean we've given them nothing?" He glared. "Don't we have new money in programs like the Compassion Fund thing?"

I looked again at Karl. He seemed stunned at what I was saying. "No, sir," I told the President. "In the past two years we've gotten less than $80 million in new grant dollars." The number fell shockingly short of the $8 billion he had vowed to deliver in the first year alone." (Time)

posted on Monday, October 16, 2006 10:41:10 AM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [0]
# Saturday, October 14, 2006

This rant is awesome - I find it hillarious.

"So when you look back and put all my documented POVs together, an ugly picture starts to emerge. I want to live in an homogeneous society, have a brutal military that ignores Geneva Conventions, tortures our enemies, mows down entire civilian populations to assure we get the resistors disguised as civilians, stands up un-democratic dictators to do our bidding in the third world, suppress the ability of our citizens to undermine our military strategy, allows no dissent from citizens who dont have the best interests of our nation as a whole having a say in policy, and militarize our borders, shooting everyone we catch trying to cross them.......Basically it appears that I want to live in China, Russia, or maybe even North Korea. Apparently I am a Commie at heart and just didn't know it." (Redneck Texan)


Not there's anything wrong being a Commie.


posted on Saturday, October 14, 2006 4:05:12 PM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [1]

 

If you were coming in the fall
I'd brush the summer by
With half a smile and half a spurn
As housewives do a fly.

If I could see you in a year
I'd wind the months in balls
And put them into separate drawers
Until their time befalls.

If only centuries delayed
I'd count them on my hand
Subtracting 'till my fingers dropped
Into Van Diemen's land

If certain when this life was out
That yours and mine should be
I'd toss life yonder like a rind
And taste eternity.

But now all ignorant of length,
Of times uncertain wing,
It goads me like the goblin bee
That will not state its sting!
(Emily Dickinson)
posted on Saturday, October 14, 2006 1:45:41 AM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [1]
# Tuesday, October 10, 2006
 
There are days when you are just not good enough; work too much, care too less, not fast enough, not smart enough, and the list goes on.

And today is that day.

posted on Tuesday, October 10, 2006 4:14:23 AM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [0]
# Monday, October 09, 2006

Call me paranoid or that I need to go out more :), but we just have a North Korean Nuclear Test this morning.

posted on Monday, October 09, 2006 9:07:50 AM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [0]

“Any ethnic or religious group that is new to American politics is going to go through trouble,” he said, reaching next to his office desk to open a book called “Jews in American Politics.”

He read aloud a passage about how Jews were vilified and blocked from political office until their expertise in various fields proved crucial to the New Deal.

“It’s going to be the same way for Muslims,” he said. “It is just going to take a while.” "(NY Times)

What's unique about the US is that in every decade, there's different ethnic group or religion that get vilified or looked down upon, the poor Irish, the dirty Italians, Japanese, Chinese, the Lebanese, Jews, etc, etc but in the end, those people always manage to rise above and secure themselves in the mainstream strata of US society.

This reminds me of a joke, when a reporter asked whether a certain President whether a Christian can be a President of Egypt; and he answered "not even a Muslim".

posted on Monday, October 09, 2006 1:25:13 AM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [0]
# Sunday, October 08, 2006

 

Criticism is good but it is not helpful (even a constructive one) in the beginning of an idea development.

It is not easy to grow ideas and make it a reality. There are things that you have to worry about and most people know about them. Help your creative process by concentrating on what is possible and less about what is not perfect.

Repeat, refine, retry.

But spare the criticism, even the good intentioned one.

Wait until it is time.

Otherwise, the idea will have no chance whatsoever to become a reality.

A child will never able to walk if he/she was aware of the situation and being critical about it.

A child has no shame of failure - so she developed this amazing creation and development process that stopped somehow at the age of 13, when boys discover girls and girls realize their power over boys.

Find reasons why an idea would work and execute it ruthlessly. Ideas, like talk, are cheap. Execution is the secret of everything.

posted on Sunday, October 08, 2006 11:06:32 PM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [0]
# Wednesday, October 04, 2006
"Complete calm comes from complete certainty. In today's unnerving, globalizing, sometimes terrifying world, such religious certainty is a balm more in demand than ever. In the new millennium, Muslims are not alone in grasping the relief of submission to authority. The new Pope, despite his criticism of extremist religion and religious violence, represents a return to a more authoritarian form of Catholicism. In the Catholic triad of how we know truth--an eternal dialogue between papal authority, scriptural guidance and the experience of the faithful--Benedict XVI has tilted the balance decisively back toward his own unanswerable truth.

....

If God really is God, then God must, by definition, surpass our human understanding. Not entirely. We have Scripture; we have reason; we have religious authority; we have our own spiritual experiences of the divine. But there is still something we will never grasp, something we can never know--because God is beyond our human categories. And if God is beyond our categories, then God cannot be captured for certain. We cannot know with the kind of surety that allows us to proclaim truth with a capital T. There will always be something that eludes us. If there weren't, it would not be God.

" (Andrew Sullivan)

This is a good essay by Andrew Sullivan about the nature of faith. It is an arrogance of the highest scale when you are so sure that you understand and know the nature God.

And it is also dangerous.

Combine this arrogance with lack of reasons and humanity, what we end up is a world with perpetual conflicts - with God as our toy soldier.



posted on Wednesday, October 04, 2006 12:06:44 AM (Egypt Standard Time, UTC+02:00)  #    Comments [1]